Day 0 - Early Warning Signs - March

Day 0 are the days leading up to Day 1, when we found out something was wrong with our twins. I can't write the detail for Day 0 because, looking back, I feel like I had so many chances to save Grace. Like when I was reading the funny pregnancy books instead of serious ones about early warning signs, like when I had symptoms and didn't call the doctor, like when something happened and I finally called the doctor, leaving a message instead of going to the hospital. I would never have done anything to hurt her, but if I had done things differently, she would still be here. I don't know how I'll ever be all right with that.